Life..what is it?? Does anyone know the true meaning behind it?? For me, life is just a game..we strive for success and after that.. Game over. Whole life we've been fighting..For what?? for ourselves?? Cmon let's face it...life isn't that hard only when you stop making it seems like it.. Live from your heart..not from your brain or temptations.. Go with whatever comes to you and don't avoid it.. When problems come, calm down and start thinking.. Only challenges makes people stronger. Those who keep everything to themselves and face everything alone are the bravest. The beauty of life is the process, the experience..not the materials or fame or success.. Live a life of what you want with passion... and lastly, make the most of it before it ends..

Today I was drenched in rain for like 15 minutes.. Went home dripping wet.. Nothing interesting happened today.. Might go to gym tomorrow.. What keeps me thinking now is that whether I've hung onto something for too long and not willing to let it go.. Hell I haven't even meet her but everyday I think of her.. What's my problem?? I tried talking to her and she never replies..Maybe she thinks I'm a jerk or annoying guy.. Haha I am indeed.. I think I just need someone to care for..someone like her who was also being bullied in primary school..I have true feelings for her but there are so many barriers..Human are all the same..HOMOSAPIENS..but the way we think can vary vastly.. I want to stop being trying so hard to love someone but I can't..she is stuck on my mind and will always be...Been through bullying when I was small..my pants being stripped in front of my classmates..being used and rejected..being isolated and neglected in the corner..in primary school when people hated me..being known as the nerd and geek..being used by people.. A LOT..In Form 1 people hated me too..Being dumped by my girlfriend after 1 week of dating..Is life hard?? NO..I am the one that made it seem hard with all the negative thought..But you can't blame me with all the stuff I've gone through..Only true friends support you all the way through..not just when you succeed..They got your back and never look down on you.. Now I swear to myself I must live a beautiful life..So beautiful that people envy..I kept on telling myself this is wrong but I'm human..I know the theory behind it but we are emotional driven..unless I can control it which I can't and that led to broken door handles, laptop, chairs, TV and much more..I'm opening up now. I confessed I've smashed countless doors and plates..treated my mum unfairly.. Hell domestic violence isn't something new anymore.. I REALLY want to control myself but I don't know how..so I turned to smoking..to be cool, to get girls, to relieve my stress, to stop being......ME.. What was I thinking?? I'm Sherard, that will never change.. I can only change my attitude or else life will get worse.. I owed my family too much and it's time to contribute something but I CAN"T BE FUCKED TO DO ANYTHING.. So now I must stand strong but I...can't..I'm so weak inside..I want to live my life the way I want..literally trying now but I might succeed..Wish me luck guys..Word said..I will always support those whenever they are down..enemies too..and I can't stop thinking of her..