Checked out Pro Tools 9..Costs about 700 dollars..Awesome software according to the guys..Might consider get it next year :)

Music..It's actually quite a hard road to walk through..but if it were easy, many people would've gone through it and there would be nothing special about musicians, wouldn't it? That's why musicians are so special..they require an enormous effort to get famous and succeed but what the people see is the outside, the beautifully wrapped package.. Music isn't just an entertainment, it's a lifestyle, it's a kind of healing medicine.. Only one that has been through the road know what it's like.. Mind you there maybe several potholes and ditches, but what matters is the passion for it and the spirit of never giving up. I believe once you've tried your best, nothing can stop you from being the top. So people out there, no matter which profession you are from, never be afraid to stand up and chase your dream, don't just get chained or jailed to the life you hate..Be strong :)

And also our band includes sounds of jazz/rock violin :)

30 seconds to mars..absolutely fantastic! Weird but great..great vocalist, drummer and guitarist! Anyway did the tune today for verse 1..maybe auditioning for vocalists..All is going good so far..next set of lyrics will be named "The kid without Christmas"...
We're heading into a kind of Linkin Park fused with 30 STM style..Grand yet slow but strong.
PS. We don't do songs about couple love..we do songs about humanity and actual stuff that is worth caring about..So please support us!!

PPS: Can someone think of a catchy name?? The chinky monks?? lol.. Please suggest in the comment box :)

Good news everyone!! Made brand new lyrics and fresh to start the band..Recommend those beginner recorders to use AVID VOCAL STUDIO..quite user friendly completed with virtual instruments and plenty of loops..
Anyway:

Verse 1:
Hustling wind,
Haunting dreams,
Appears the fiend,
The tunnel of gray whirls,
So body and soul curls,
As the last drop of warmth falls,
I bid farewell to the world.

Chorus:
Temptations never stop pending,
And we never stop spending,
But we can't stop pretending,
Pretend this all isn't going to end.

Verse 2:
Darkness through,
The days,
All the deeds we've done,
Can you see what we've become,
All we need is love and care
And stop treating this unfair.

Bridge:
The clocks are ticking,
Smoke are rising,
The pain keeps coming,
Extinguishes the flame of surviving.

Enjoy guys..!! might get a MIDI interface box soon..then we start recording and release our first song..!!

No technologies for 5 days...and I started to enjoy it in the end..hmm, got my head shaved to the skin..first day was hectic but it all turned out good in the end. Went for karaoke and drink last night, shouted at some racist cunts..didn't buy my ticket and saw police at the station then had someone to buy it for me and pass it to me. lol. Went to temple today and helped..Bought some new shoes and now ready for soccer..Have fun guys!! :)
TBH I'm still kinda missing her, always hoping that she appears online..dammmm..

Its a lonely blog..I admit..but I'm just writing all this for myself so it doesn't really matters..So just now I went to my life's first formal..It was a bit boring actually. Got myself a new shirt and a bow tie just for it..and now its 1:13am. In 7 hours sleep time, I'm gonna wake up, pack my bags and head towards sydney to attend a buddhist camp..Fun? Meh..Just wanna get out of here before it bores me to death..and I'm also gonna buy myself the microphone I've promised myself..get it all set up tomorrow and start recording some sounds! Epic.. Anyway guys, gotta sleep now..got my whole band ready..I'm going to be what I set out to be! :)

Rite..so now its friday night..Went to university and watched sitcom with my friend..then tonight played xbox till Im tired..Tomorrow work and on Sunday, maybe go to a formal..speaking of which, should I buy a headphone, a shirt or a pair of jeans? Next week I will be spending my time at a camp and also get my early Christmas present... :) Nothing much has been going lately except me listening songs on my brother's awesome surround system..
Good songs: Katy Perry..That is the song that I'm currently practicing on..yes it's a girl's song and yes..I can sing that high..but I scratched my voice yesterday and it's still hurting now..anyway hope that everyone is having a nice day and always be happy:)

Despicable me..awesome movie..finally last day of school today..got my cert and went shopping around with frens..then went to kick soccer with bro..interesting?? not really I guess..working from thursday to sunday..then going to sydney on monday and head towards a retreat thing. Got my holidays filled up with work..hopefully I can earn enough cash and treat myself a special present..

Went to watch Narnia today. Apparently it isn't that bad in 3D..quite a good movie. Doing my biology assignment now which is due on Monday. Just moved in with my brother..actually not quite bad too..Enjoyed playing COD Black Ops..such a good game. Now that I think about it, everyone has a girlfriend, but why not me? Well having a girlfriend actually isn't that fancy or fun like most people fantasizes..I just want to live my own life and with music and my loved ones (friends and family)..As long as I;ve got them, I will be happy enough..Still missing her much :(

Stayed at friend's place at Saturday night. Went singing and had dinner..what a good way to celebrate my 1 year anniversary in Australia..! I'm still making lyrics and I'm currently staying with my brother. For now, nothing much is happening, but I'm still thinking of her as always..:) I will live my life to the max..and love it more than others.

Woow...played tennis today. Seems like I've still got the skills..oh yeh..Going down to sydney tomorrow to send mum to the airport and staying at friend's house for the night. It's 1 am now..and I still can't sleep..why..Anyway I talked to that girl today..She said she will wait for me to go back and see her but she's going to UK soon..sad :( Well lets just hope that when I get famous, I get a chance to tour UK..:)

12.04 am..waiting for my sister to comment on my lyrics..well guess sometimes family is the best..They will support you whenever and wherever you are..Love my family..

Ooh..and also don't forget James Blunt's "Stay the Night"..

Boring long nights are always accompanied by soothing music..When I look out of my window, everything's so quiet..But that is the exact opposite of my heart..I think too much, more than i can actually handle. Songs like Daniel Powter's "Bad Day" help me get through my days..Today I looked out of my window and saw the sunset..Beautiful as it was..I can still remember it in my head..I love those feelings when you can just sit down and enjoy the view, thinking about all those beautiful things and just really relax. It's so hard for people to actually and communicate with each other now..How I hope the world can just stops and everyone comes around and start joking and talking to each other..She had a bad day today and talked to me..was glad that I can contribute on helping her out..but it's sad when someone you like already has her heart for someone..I don't really care much at all..I mean I'm human and I feel sad, but if she truly loves him, I've got anything to say, haven't I? Now life just passes by peacefully..Mum's leaving to SG and Nepal soon for her school building project..Wish I could help out..Anyway guys I'm working on project Gamma..and REMEMBER..don't ever stop loving those around you..If you can't, at least try to.. (and I hate those racist kids down my building..I'm not from freaking China you bastards..)..Have a nice night!!

As promised, Project Beta

Chorus:

When I turned and told you I love you

And you smiled and say this is a lie

But I’m not sweating, my heartbeat’s not rising

Cause deep inside we all know it’s true

That I’ve fallen fallen deeply for you.

Verse 1:

When we first met, when our eyes first locked

We looked deep into each other

Your big almond eyes with a touch of green

It’s the most wonderful thing I’ve ever seen

You smiled shyly

And it took me to places I’ve never been

You know I’m not Bruno Mars and I ain’t a sweet talker

But together we seem to always chat forever

So perfect when you’re not, so hard to come by

Fate brought us together and its luck that I find

Lonely nights I’ve got you with me,

Your laughter and smile has been imprinted on my mind

Verse 2:

The breeze carries your fragrance, the leafs rustling

Spring is coming and we stare into each other

No words spoken, deep inside we engage together

You lay onto my lap, turned your head around and gave me a smile

That moment, I realised words are merely tools of communication

You are my inspiration, built me up and supported me

Without you, my heart literally falls to destruction

When you left, I can still smell your scent

Lingering on the spot when you laid in my arms

The days are gone, but the sound of your whisper stays in my ears

I’m hanging on, to every word that you spoke about me

Those were the amazing moments spent with you, and you told me I was a fool

We usually joked around and when you’re tired

Lay your head on my shoulders, silky hair covering your face

We would stare outside the window for ages and I started parting your hair aside

Pre Chorus:

Nothing can tear us apart, this love continues through oceans

Our hearts shall never part, like binary stars in motion

They can mock at us, But I will never give up,

Like a shooting star, our love flares through the night sky

I’ll be your guardian, and on you my faith relies

Verse 3:

We locked eyes again, and this time nothing’s be the same

Oh how I wished this never ends, but that’s not gonna happen

The moments we cuddled together, the times I wished it lasts forever,

My dreams are shattered but I will never give up missing you

I have trust in us, one day we shall be together

And I’m waiting, waiting for you to come back,

This time I’ll hold your hands tightly,

And you will feel my heartbeat, saying you love me,

I’ll seal your lips with a kiss, these are the things I’ve missed,

And now I’ve called you to say, life is treating me kind

But that slightly shaky tone gave it away

Truth is without you, nothing’s fine.

WOOW...finally..took only 2 nights..ENJOY and comment..

Ok..now it is about half way through (not quite long as it is a slow and sentimental song).. Will arrange it tomorrow and shall name it 'Project Beta'..

Just realized I can sing "Living on a prayer" by Bon Jovi..My computer is getting slow now..Stupid NFS..spent 900mb on it but it doesn't work. I'm moving to my brother's next week..hope he treats me good. It's 930 now..sitting here listening to songs and forgetting about my assignments.. Anyway I want to shout out to those people inspired by music out there..Keep on doing music!! No matter rock, rap or R&B, as long as it bring happiness into people's life, you have reached the aim of becoming a good artist..Tips on what to write about: For me, it's usually daily things that inspire me..Not too much about the big pictures, but those small things..Like maybe a smile of someone, a cloud or the view outside your bus..Through these stuff, I can write about what I feel at that time..Just to rid my boredom, I'm going to write it some lyrics now.. (Don't blame me if I can't finish..I still have school tomorrow..) :)

Ok...assignments and homework due soon and I haven't done any yet..I'm in deep trouble..Going to a tennis match this friday and send mum to airport on saturday..Sunday I'll be going out and celebrate my 1 year anniversary in Australia!! It has been a while yeh?? Can't wait till I get back to Malaysia..hope everything stays the same.. In the holidays, I'm going to buy this microphone thing with my friend..It's pretty awesome as you can sing into it (high quality sound that is) and after that, edit your song with various samples available.. Imagine making a song in 10 minutes!! That will be so freaking awesome.. I can't really get her out of my mind (totally) but now that she doesn't actually react or talk back..I assume she doesn't really care much so I'll just keep her in my mind..:)

Friends..I wanna touch on this topic again..There are some that are true..some that are fake..and some that treat you as a 'spare'..to me, the third one is the dirtiest, bastards that only befriends people that they think are 'nice' or 'cool'..and then when they ignore them, they turn to talk to the 'spares'..the 'spares' are usually happy because they are cooler than themselves..It all ends up in a cycle..Eventually the 'cool' ones turn to the quiet ones and they usually become best friends..That's what I see in Australia..but I assume that everywhere would be the same? I getting bored of this fake world..it all comes down to what is true, what is true happiness? I'm trying so hard to make it in this world, but I'm becoming someone I'm not. From now, I will stick to my true self, no more 'Whoa, you're cool..BE MY FRIEND.." Anyway I'm tired now...just worked for like 9 hours. Tomorrow gonna meet with mum's friend and their family..and probably start playing tennis..Till then, goodnight :)
P.S. Always be happy guys, don't think too much and when you have a girlfriend, don't ignore your friends because that just makes you a dickhead.

Today...hmm..its alright I guess..Austin Powers was funny..Played a bit of basketball to get taller :) Other than that, just stayed at home doing nothing while listening to songs..Stan Walker is a amazing singer..Maybe writing lyrics soon. I don't really want to work tomorrow man..but this is my life..can't complain..just hope everything goes out smoothly and no one's bitchin me around. Hope everyone is having a nice life..teenage years come and pass so fast and time shouldn't be wasted on useless stuff :) and to my friend, please don't smoke..if you really CAN'T, at least smoke less..you will never regret it..:)

Freestyle..you know why?? Cause I'm fucking bored..

Now let me settle down and tell you a story,
It may be boring but it never bore me,
This little kid had a dream, a dream others can't see
A dream so wonderful he knows it so well he,
must work hard and passion is the key,
Shed away tears, fight fears he gonna set out to what he gonna be,
And now let's see, see if he's capable of becoming the next me,
Oh wait, no wait, that little boy grew up to be me.
He fell, got pulled up strike back and nailed,
those lyrics so hard he busts them right through the cell,
Critics dirt on him but he will never bail,
Through the lyrics and flow millions of album he sells.
He rose from the dark, being crowned alpha male,
Throne on the left, right the holy grail,
He's never gonna look back, he will never fail,
Hater hate in vain, sitting there and wail.

Music reliefs me..it's so true..and lyrics too..Went and chill with my mate today. Had 4 dollars of fat, hot chips..(though I think the guy is scabbing us)..and had macca's ice-cream to chill it down..Pretty interesting day I guess..Went up to this cute girl in library and started talking to her..got her name but not her number..haha..and when I was going home, saw some kids graffitying the walls..Ugly as shit..anyways I'm off to bed now..I spoke with her today :)

Life..what is it?? Does anyone know the true meaning behind it?? For me, life is just a game..we strive for success and after that.. Game over. Whole life we've been fighting..For what?? for ourselves?? Cmon let's face it...life isn't that hard only when you stop making it seems like it.. Live from your heart..not from your brain or temptations.. Go with whatever comes to you and don't avoid it.. When problems come, calm down and start thinking.. Only challenges makes people stronger. Those who keep everything to themselves and face everything alone are the bravest. The beauty of life is the process, the experience..not the materials or fame or success.. Live a life of what you want with passion... and lastly, make the most of it before it ends..

Today I was drenched in rain for like 15 minutes.. Went home dripping wet.. Nothing interesting happened today.. Might go to gym tomorrow.. What keeps me thinking now is that whether I've hung onto something for too long and not willing to let it go.. Hell I haven't even meet her but everyday I think of her.. What's my problem?? I tried talking to her and she never replies..Maybe she thinks I'm a jerk or annoying guy.. Haha I am indeed.. I think I just need someone to care for..someone like her who was also being bullied in primary school..I have true feelings for her but there are so many barriers..Human are all the same..HOMOSAPIENS..but the way we think can vary vastly.. I want to stop being trying so hard to love someone but I can't..she is stuck on my mind and will always be...Been through bullying when I was small..my pants being stripped in front of my classmates..being used and rejected..being isolated and neglected in the corner..in primary school when people hated me..being known as the nerd and geek..being used by people.. A LOT..In Form 1 people hated me too..Being dumped by my girlfriend after 1 week of dating..Is life hard?? NO..I am the one that made it seem hard with all the negative thought..But you can't blame me with all the stuff I've gone through..Only true friends support you all the way through..not just when you succeed..They got your back and never look down on you.. Now I swear to myself I must live a beautiful life..So beautiful that people envy..I kept on telling myself this is wrong but I'm human..I know the theory behind it but we are emotional driven..unless I can control it which I can't and that led to broken door handles, laptop, chairs, TV and much more..I'm opening up now. I confessed I've smashed countless doors and plates..treated my mum unfairly.. Hell domestic violence isn't something new anymore.. I REALLY want to control myself but I don't know how..so I turned to smoking..to be cool, to get girls, to relieve my stress, to stop being......ME.. What was I thinking?? I'm Sherard, that will never change.. I can only change my attitude or else life will get worse.. I owed my family too much and it's time to contribute something but I CAN"T BE FUCKED TO DO ANYTHING.. So now I must stand strong but I...can't..I'm so weak inside..I want to live my life the way I want..literally trying now but I might succeed..Wish me luck guys..Word said..I will always support those whenever they are down..enemies too..and I can't stop thinking of her..

Went to Sydney on Saturday after 9 hours of work..I quit my 5am job because it's too tiring..Tired as shit and arrived there around 11pm..After mum went to sleep, I woke up and went to friend's room, downloaded SA and drank beer..Next day went to meet with mum's Malaysian friend and had this fucking enormous bowl of Vietnam noodles.. Took train home by myself and watched TV till I'm tired and finally decided to update my blog.. Only a few reads this but I'm doing it for myself (DUR~it's a blog..).. I've been wanting to buy Sennheiser headphones too.. Went shopping with 2 friends on Thursday arvo and bought some new clothes.. (3 for 10 bucks!)..A friend wanted to find me for a band after HSC and IF successful, we might tour Australia!! But that is just dreams..for now I must do the best I can.. Haven't been making songs lately..dammit..must find time to do it or I'll forget about it.. What about that girl?? Screw it..I'm still thinking of her but life still goes on right?? :)

I support DAP over BN...because I like Drugs, Alcohol and Party..lol

Hmm...haven't updated my blog lately..ok..I worked from 530am to 6pm during saturday..and earned 110 dollars...I'm saving money to buy myself some headphones..good ones like Sennheiser or Bose..have been writing songs lately but only in small bits..saying sorry for my friend because I promised him one but can't make it...well there is one being made..still halfway in production but it will be published quite soon..since there is nothing to do after school other than gym or basketball..I really want to go back to Malaysia and see how it's like over there..so quiet yet so fun..I really miss Malaysia. Oh by the way I'm going to Auckland early 2011..YEAH!! time for me to relax too..but I can't make it to Linkin's concert..DAMN.. Well I promise myself I will go next time IF they release another album...school is pretty boring as there is no one to talk to..but I guess life just has to move on..the girl I mentioned seems not to take interest in me..should I let her go?? Who knows?? Only time tells...

Got a keyboard in my room now..went to bro's house and watched a movie with him..played xbox and football..pretty relaxed weekend i guess..man fuck school..don't really want to go tomorrow..
(still missing her..:(.. )

Oh man..how I love talking to those random people who you don't even know adding you on facebook..it's just so awkward!! (and kinda funny)...Oh well I didn't get the main role probably because of the stupid accent thing..FUCK that..lets all pray I get the principle role then..if not I'm so going to them and get my 60 bucks back...tomorrow is sat so guess I have to wake at 500am again..haha well X-men is on tonight and I'm going to cook myself some spaghetti.. :)

Ok..so I went to my workplace and handed in my account number..and what they said was:" We don't think you are quite suitable for the job because this is a fast-paced environment" and that was how I lost my job..well fair enough I guess..I wasn't that experienced in dealing with veges, plus I don't really liked my boss..although I was a lil bit disappointed because of the money that I'm going to lose..Other than that, everything was fine..played some hectic basketball today and was sweating like a hog..and hopefully they choose me for the lead role of the musical... :) (and yes..I still think of her sometimes when I'm alone..)

WOOTS..graduated from yr 11.......that feels fucking awesome..cause I was awarded 2 certs..first in ESL and the 2nd one for outstanding effort..now I'm in the last year of high school!! Now its 1114pm and I'm singing..why?? Tomorrow I'm going to have an audition..Hope everything goes well!! Oh and I went to the bank for a new account today..just for the sake of my job..AND a huge thanks to those who approve of my lyrics..you guys encouraged me to do more!!

OK..and now Project Beta is on the way..For alpha, I'm still finding the right rhythm for it..need some tunes and after that maybe I'll start recording it..It's still fucking raining and that depresses my mood..

Ok guys..(for whoever is reading..) Project alpha has been completed in 3 hours and will be posted as promised..This is a promise for myself for the love of music and hope that it inspires underground musicians out there to continuously create better songs..

First Verse:

It’s a cloudy morning the rain is dripping on the window pane

Shady Clouds blocking the sunlight, when I looked out on the bustling lane

Foggy windows blocking my sight so I wiped out the mist

Noticed the streetlight shedding light for the souls who are lost

Direction needed, light shone upon but where are you when I need you most

So I sat beside the window and listened closely to the patters of raindrops

So soft yet so clear

Cars moving along the street people self absorbed in thoughts

Days going by the year

And I closed my eyes

The world in this moment has been shutted out of my mind

The clock ticking away silently reminding me of the time

The time lost when I was missing you

You gave me the light on the street and showed me directions to live

But when you left for countless nights I wept

Rainy morning accompanied me through the night as the skies shed their tears

And raindrops masked my fears

Cause since you been gone, you took everything away with you

When the day that you left, I forced up a smile and told you everything’s gonna be alright

But that ain’t true cause now nothing seems to be going right

And now I’m hoping the rain won’t stop cause I need it through the night

Second Verse:

Oh I was such a fool I believed in forever and this ain’t coming true

This world we live in is so cruel separating isn’t something new

But for you I will wait till the end of the day

Even storm comes in I will still always stay

Cause you’re the one

You’re the one that I want

People might say that this guy is crazy love has him driving around c-razy

Indeed you had me going dizzy

But this is something that no one will understand

Because you’re my lady Juliet and I’m your superman

For you I try the best I can

Memories penetrating my head

And my love for you will never fade

Remembering the fun time we had

And the lovely things you made

And I was relentless in persuading that this feeling will disappear

But that will never happen I fear

A lonely man hopeless within

Going through the places where we’ve been

Your smile is the reason why I’m alive

You came in and literally changed my whole life

When you told me you had to leave and stared into my eyes

This clarifies my mind, and I promised myself that I will leave u behind

You’re imprinted on my mind and after you left I told myself that I’ll be fine

But unfortunately this isn’t working out

Cause you are everything that I am about

Third Verse:

Now it’s still drizzling but raindrops tend to soothe the emptiness inside

I can’t bear more of the weeping nights as you shed me the light

If I had you what more could I ask? I can only ask that this forever last

That you won’t leave me so fast

Diamonds cars fame you’re incomparable gave me a smile as sweet as an apple

Making me fly is something that you’re able

And you made me believe that love just ain’t a fable

As I sit here missing you, I realise that this is a barrier that I can’t break through

I must pick myself up and get over you

A silent knock on the front door and I jumped out hoping it was you

Grappling the handle and my heart is pumping

Told myself that 1 day you will come back for me

But that ain’t true

Cause when I open the door the fantasies are over

And it’s the real world that I’m going through.

Pre Chorus:

When the day that you left,

I forced up a smile and told you everything’s gonna be alright

But that ain’t true because now nothing seems to be going right

Chorus:

Cause I’m still missing you

I kept telling myself this is over but that ain’t true

Hope that the next time we meet

And you will never change just one bit

Always stay the same as you are

And I’ll embrace you my dar and send a whisper

Beside you that “I love you”

-------------The End---------------

Ok now guys this is a copyright of Sherard K ok?? if any1 of you wants a copy or anything, feel free to ask me..I'm always willing to share..